Dear Mr Fix it,
It’s been a while.
Longer than I can remember and much longer than I’d like to admit.
I really don’t know where to start with you. I have a lot of questions and not enough courage to seek the answers I desperately long for.
Sometimes I lay awake at night and wonder if things would be different if we had the relationship we used to. Too many times I have tried to fix things on my own but I always end up making a mess of myself.
It gets really tough sometimes…
I’m taking a break from my pursuit of purpose to reach out to you, to seek you. Why? I’m lost without you that’s why. My world is better with you in it – I have tried you and I have found you to be worthy.
I’m not here to ask for fame or money, but that you teach me how to love, who to trust, where to go…
Mr Fix it, you know my thoughts before I say anything but I will say it out loud nonetheless. I’m tense, terrified of the unknown, uncertain about what I should be doing and where I should go.
Powerless, I’m worried about what happens next and if I have the strength to handle it.
I may have a million questions for you that is testing our relationship but these are the trials that make us strong. You said to “cast all of my cares on you and to come unto you when I feel weary” so today, I come trusting that you would not turn me away.
I want to be back where I was with you – seeing all of the good things you have given me, not focusing on the misfortune.
“Help me to know more of the joy that comes from knowing you… joy in knowing that you are always with me”
Today I lay my burdens before you because when I walk away, I will be free. Free of concerns, cares and worries.
I’ll lay me down to sleep and rest knowing that I’m safe in the arms of your love cos it’s been you all along.
I know you can if I let you do it, so I’ll let you. I’ll let go and let you fix me.
By Kimberly Ubiebor