I woke up on the 31st of May, 2018 and after a while, I cried deeply.
There’s a lot that’s to be done and it seemed as though I have not even started. I make mistakes, sometimes one that I shouldn’t do, and I fall back to that realm of thinking I’m the worst person on earth, sometimes I get so stubborn on my own ways that I forget how to be flexible in reaching out to others, which limits my goals!
My business isn’t going the way I had expected, my plans doesn’t seem like it’s going to fall into place, so I’m here surfing the internet for things that can fade away, that I know are lustful for this certain phase, I know deep down that I deserve the best but I selfishly put so much pressure on myself to desire these things so I fall into the realm of confusion and anxiety!
While at it, the sweet Holy Spirit just lays a scripture in my heart
JAMES 1:4 and when I open up to read I’m down with heavy tears broken to my knees;
Then, I’m reminded, of God’s love, of how much He loves me and how I’m meant to freely reciprocate love to others. Of how He will never leave me – the enemy just keep bringing a contrary situation both at work and my business. Sometimes I and myself if I’m not trying enough or if I’m trying so hard that I miss it!
So I’m told to slow down, and let Patience have her work. I then realised that sometimes we are the ones delaying the move or the process from actualizing because we are trying to fast to reach the finish line meanwhile we have not acquired what’s needed to reach the end.
So here I am writing down a few words the Lord gave me on patience!
We boarded the bus of destiny. Hit potholes, bumped into ditches; But we made it out.
It seems so slow in coming. The road is longer than I thought. I saw the city afar off. The land that springs forth green vegetations and ripe harvest. A place where beauty reigns, rest is sure and success is supreme.
Everyday I desired it. Everyday I looked forward to it. But it still looked afar off. The closer we got, the closer it seems we weren’t there yet. Some got to their places, and left. We continued for ours is still far ahead….
We saw what looked like it. So we stopped and took a taste but indeed it was nothing like what we saw in our dreams, nothing like what was promised for us. So we continued…..
We are on our way to fulfilling purpose and we would wait until we get there!
So wait; Let patience have her perfect work!