Mar 29, 2018 || Talk Thursday
“And with that, members of the board, ladies and gentlemen, is how we can skyrocket sales and increase net profits with ease and speed.”
Applauds. I felt proud. I just concluded my first official seminar and everyone was impressed and just when I was almost through arranging my files packed up, Sonia pulled me aside.
“Hmm, Toks, nawa o! Look at you, all prim and proper giving great speeches and lectures. Who would have thought that the Tokunbo of yesterday can be so bold and smart. I remember when you first started here, you only had about 4 jackets or so, if I’m not mistaken, Nwanneka said its even 2,” she giggled. “Now see you changing clothes like you own a boutique, Congrats again.” She said sarcastically with a pat at the shoulder and left.
I was nailed to the ground dumbfounded, above all left with a feeling of threat. A tear asked to be free.
“Jehovah is my advantage…. Yes He is. Whom shall I fear oh oh oh…. He is able”
Wow wow, cheers and claps as I dropped the mic. It’s been an intense and amazing rehearsal, one I looked forward to the end. I’ve been really skeptical about this, why me, Lord. Prior to this time I was given two weeks notice to prepare for the lead. I was filled with joy and sort assistance from my “senior colleagues” in the ministry. Even at home, everyone had their share and was full.
“Abeg make Sunday reach o,” mum would tease.
“Sis Chichi” someone called as I sat down. I looked to see Sis Abigail. I went out to meet her.
“What a good performance,” She said. “You tried o! See you now, baby alto singer like we usually call you, remember when you could hardly hit one note properly due to lack of breath control. Now see you hitting octaves back to back. God is really good o. Hmm, when I used to take Solo ehn, I was much better. But that your key sha, spice it up, you’re too dry. We know you have a sharp voice ehn tone it down for the sake of others, so it won’t as if you’re trying to overshadow them and take their shine. Don’t be too ambitious it’s just a local church choir, not like it’s a competition you hear? It’s well o, later”. She said as she walked back in.
I matched to my sit like one controlled with a remote control. As I sat, I asked God what I did wrong. Did I shout, or put too much “efizzy” while singing? My spirit was down. I felt a liquid substance on my left cheek….i guess it’s a drop of sweat.
Can we find ourselves, whether as the critic or receiver. Listen people it’s high time we STOP this. We must not really have a say in people’s lives. We should know and learn how to handle competition.
True Story – I never used to like competition, I am someone that believes in what I have and what i can do, so when i see people get into competition mood, i retreat like a snail, back into my shelf. Now one thin i try as much as possible not to do, is bring myself into talking people down, yes sometimes the pride tries to creep in but i fight back against it, knowing that whoever brings anyone downs should get ready for downfall too.
People: Never believe or see yourself less because someone cannot see better. They can only see within their capacity. So don’t be bother when they talk that way. Now there are some constructive critics, know them and sieve their advice. Some people can’t even take the advice they’re giving others. If only, just if only!
People: Allow people to be. Allow them grow. Allow them become who God has purposed for them.